It’s been a long time since I posted a blog, bout time I get to writing about my time in Nashville.
Been living in Nash for three months now and I’ve honestly been having the time of my life. I’m VERY busy but that definitely isn’t stopping Lauren and I from livin’ it up from time to time…or all the time. ASCAP and Tavern keep us VERY busy and when we’re not at either of those I’d love to say we kick it at home on the couch and rest but that definitely isn’t the case. When I’m at home doing nothing at night I feel like I should be out mingling and meeting people. My job right now it to find a job and there’s no time to waste.
I’m very happy here…I mean, I’ve been dying to come back for a year and a half. I love Nashville. But….I am very unsettled. I’m never satisfied, it’s just my nature. Tavern is paying the bills and ASCAP is giving me opportunities, but I know something is still missing. I’m itching for something else. I feel like I have so much to offer and nobody to give it to. My skills and talents are DYING to be used! I know my time will come and everything will eventually fall into place. I get it. (I mean how couldn’t I when EVERYONE keeps telling me that EVERY time I bring it up?)
But I’m impatient. I want things done NOW. I’m a go-getter and when I’m not getting anywhere frustration sets in. Again, I KNOW it won’t happen immediately. I GET IT. But thanks for the reminder. ;)
I hear stories how it took people years to finally get a gig in this town. But I’m not the person to sit back and wait. I will find something. I will NOT quit fighting. I will become the biggest pain in the ass anyone has ever met because I’m determined. “You’re doing all the right things, Renee….just be patient”. I GET IT. Seriously. But no, I won’t be patient.
I understand this industry is hard to break into and I won’t lie, I laugh to myself when people say I need to be patient. Actually, no, I don’t need to be. Why be patient and wait? And let someone else sneak in and take the job I want when I was “being patient”? I will keep looking and keep applying and keep emailing and keep bugging people, while being IMPATIENT the whole time. Yup, that’s just how I am and it’s not going to change.
So while I know the people who tell me to “be patient” and that “my time will come” and that “I’m doing all the right things” definitely have my best interest at heart (and don’t get me wrong, I really do appreciate their words), I won’t listen. My time will come and it will because I worked hard for it and never quit fighting.
I GET IT.